i will walk and know, i aint alone.

I am posting pictures and they are totally pictures way back to weeks and probably just a few days ago. Yea, i kinda lost contact with everybody I know. Seems like, the world just been revolving around me and cellgroup mates. Schoolmates are kinda like lost. (HA!) Anyways, yea, im posting pictures after i don’t know how many days or months. Currently, missing lots of people and i wanna go back indo badly.

during the sunday school time, i helped cath out for the baby class and man, it was really tiring cos you got to help them pee due to the fact they have not gotten a pee training like that. but .. cute!

(i seriously, don’t know what teph and cath are attempting to do. something like no, dont touch me or what the hell?!)

(no, i’ve not been shopping. just a little bit. )

i think it’s cuteee.

the other day during sleepover in my house and we were testing out the laptop built in web-cam

when i gotten my nosebleed. HAHA.okay, so random.

oh yea! today supposed to catch enchanted but guess what happen?! The stupid person accidentally booked our tickets for yesterday timing and we didn’t realise it! we are like a dumb idiotic cos we went in excitedly and realised that it was a full-house and we aren’t supposed to be in the studio. HAIH! Then, now four of us have to get separated. Like, i got to watch the movie with cath tomorrow morning since anie and fifi watching them like just now at night. I mean, i wanna try catching a midnight movie with friends but momsie strictly gave me a ten pm curfew. (i break em often) but i just wanna be goodgirl. like go home early, go online, go read books, do homework and stop orchard-ing, marina-ing or esplanade-ing. Tomorrow, we three are wearing the same shirt we bought at an inexpensive price and anie commented we are like charlie’s angle. -_-” oh, i was fuming until i asked for the cineleisure manager to give me a new ticket. stupid service.

as if I know

why would people try to dig the past?
I tried to hide all like so mad
but it goes so bad
because the past spread fast

why would people come predicting my future?
nothing beautiful but just some rubbish bin?
I tried to stop them all
but it seems like a pure uncureable

when the mountain trembles..

I will still believe in You!

right now is like in friend’s house for the church dance thingy. heho.

You search my heart from the deepest end.

I don’t know how or why I am actually getting where I am right now. I didn’t know how significant a simple prayer is. I didn’t know when I said

“Lord, I invite You into my heart and so work in my life.” will actually meant something important and something totally surprising, lovely and cool. Lord, I don’t know why I still sin so much when You have waited for me. Lord, I see You, you know and when I saw You, kneeling down with the cross at the back, it hit me so badly. I wanna embrace  You so badly. Lord, I love You so much but You love the world more than anything. 

I want to be delightful in Your risen! Lord, all these long, it feels like a hurtful journey. Many sinful things, many undesirable, shocking incidents. But I am happy! Cos’ all these while, I’ve been staying strong with You. I’ve been a girl in You. Lord, I am sorry. Sometimes, I do things to delight people, to gain respect or smile of them…not You, Lord. Lord, I am learning. Well, learning real hard. Teach me Father God, so that I can grow deeper more into You. It seems I still got a long journey to go with You. Lord, I long to delight Your heart once more. Like, I don’t wanna do things for men but You, alone. I just wanna tell You that all things are for You. And that, Lord, I just want to delight Your heart alone. I just want to delight YOU. who cares what they say when You smile at me.

Lord Jesus.. I just want to serve You. Lord, maybe not many people can lead. Not many can pray well, touch people well but we can WORSHIP! WORSHIP YOU! Lord, I love You…

whats that..?

with women exposing their big boobs or rather man exposing them as well? ha!

i think this whole earth is rapidly improving, changing, revolution-ing that i think i am already ‘old-fashion’. i mean, i don’t even think boob exposing is like cool or nice. (to think, last time i used to do that..) right now, i feel like so back to oldies. like i mean, i covered my boobs perfectly. HA! but lets look at other people.. i mean, whats that so nice or so proud about to know that your cleavage shown in the photo captured?

it leaves me a deep funny impression. like what if men started to look at that cleavage of yours at start to do something funny. (okay, i wont mention what they think). probably, it is the time and country. i mean aussie, us, they are real proud of big boobs and all but other places are another different.

and and, i wonder why.. when chinese women who look so chee-na wore a cleavage exposing kind of clothes, we will shook our head in disgust and said that they are a ‘chicken’? why dont we do that to ang-mohs or angmohs alike chinese? sounds funny huh. it’s like when a person first impression is ruined, everything is ruined. it doesnt work that way right?

whatever this post sound to you, be glad i dont post some stupid pictures. and and and, i want abs in my tummy badly

i like hosanna’s song so much.

it is really that touching. one day, i wanna make a song like that or play a piano as good as hillsong’s pianist. FatherGod, i really wanna do lots of things for you..

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i am so going to hit the sack after this. Did the decoration for the christmast and wow, it was indeed a great accomplishment but i dont know who I am inviting again.

and I am missing lots of people.

i can count the stars for You

just some hot news about the one you’ve been wondering about.

1. yea, i’ve been like busy this week but i still manage to blog aye?! i mean, yea busy going out, talking on the phone, orchard-ing, esplanade etc.

2. tomorrow cath and nie are sleep-over-ing and i am like so happy cos’ i have been a loner for past few days

3. i didn’t go for like the guides camp and i will be going for tomorrow’s even though momsie totally said NO. I think she just forgotten all about it. should be!

4. next week, i will not be free cos i want to do something

okay, fine. I am finally done with ten vocabs. i am left with few more to go. (i think it’s quite a ton though) but hell, i think i can do it well with HIS power! i got this esprit discount again and oh mann, it tempt me to spend money quite badly… i wonder what is happening to the rest of my friends. I mean, no news of them at all.

i am like missing lots of people. like remember suddenly all the fun talks we used to have and then when it’s a holiday, i feel like a busy business woman. gahh.

wassup with the past?

i went to view the past comments i’ve been getting from people. ah, you know, all the lovey doofey testimonials people sent to me and i sent back. right now, i am like so surprised that last time, yea long long ago but not till your grandmother’s time, i was close with them! yea, pratically close with everyone i am not…ie.. i shall not mention.

then, i went on and counted those who im still close with.. like err, not that much? but still a lot? hahahaa. idk what happen to those used to be close one anymore. like ew, they are missing and disappearing from my life. sort of like stepped out from this whole odri’s world. (greattt T . T) anyway, i was reading all the stupid commennts and omg, i think last time, i am really silly, stupid or what. i mean how could i and why did i did such things like.. i shall not mention.

btw, right now it’s a two AM and i have not slept. probably cos of the heavy sleep i got just now in the evening.

i know craving isn’t good

but now,

really really really.

i want/ crave/ feel/

like eating that blueberry waffle or gelare waffle.

i mean noone asking me out in purpose because i am kinda feverish so i need some comfort like having to have to eat waffle or something. i mean my nose has stopped bleeding (really) and i am just feeling giddy and was sneezing a few times yesterday. Now, i am feeling really better. Just a little cold if you put me in a twenty-four degrees airconditioned room. but other than that, i am totally fine.

i cleaned my room like yesterday with the mission to find my missing ipod. i mean, i know it’s in the room somehow but i could not find it anywhere! *gah* anyway, my room has become cleaner. i changed the position of my cordless phone to like on top of my bookshelf and i even added another service to it! like a receptionist thing. haha. i mean, it makes me easier next time to like scrambled people’s number or message (if there is any)

am i good or what? okay, i wanna practice piano again. like i can play the song rainbow connection already! totally awesome.